Are we the same with
everyone? The way we talk, react or respond. This is something I never really
thought about until recently. And I asked myself that question. The answer is,
no I am not. I admit I have mixed feelings about it. I don't know if it’s a good
or bad thing but it's a fact.
We might be gentle loving
souls with, or totally detached from, family. With friends a different and wild
side of us emerges. Now the funny thing here is, we are also different with
different groups of friends. With some, we are totally comfortable and
outspoken and discuss dirty little secrets and with some others we just have
fun, joke around and entertain each other. Then there is a group we keep at a
distance. The friends we are not really close with but you have known them for
ages.
We
are constantly creating different versions of ourselves for different people to
see, never the same with everyone and only divulge what we want them to see of
us.
We are constantly adjusting
ourselves to our surroundings so masking comes naturally to us. Showing people
only what we want them to see keeps us safe, respected or needed by others. There
is so much of us that we don't show others because we are so afraid of not
being accepted or loved.
We are only truly ourselves
when we are in our space, alone.
But the question is, are we
happy, truly happy about how we have to act or be around others when we know
within that may not be who we are or how we feel? Have we looked within
ourselves to find out who we truly are? When stripped bare of all masks, will
we like what we find out?
Truth is we are so identified
with who we are with different people that we do not really bother looking into
ourselves. In fact we don't wish to because we convince ourselves that is who
we are and who we wish to be for others. We define ourselves according to how
we act in various situations with various people. To be accepted by everyone we
love or like is so important that we lose our identity to be the person we want
them to see.
To be accepted is so
important that we are willing to lose ourselves.